I am torn

I am wanting to purchase a domain name for my blog. I am not crazy about the fact that my last name is in my current domain name, plus it still says

I’m not sure what I should officially name my blog. I know that I am going to continue writing poetry occasionally as the mood strikes. I also am very passionate about my bartending and coming up with new or modified cocktails and I would like to continue to post my recipes but I don’t want to be full time at that either. I also do other miscellaneous crafts such as candlemaking that I would like to post about. Also I have a pug who is the light of my life.  Sometimes I am going to want to be personal. Sometimes I’m going to want to write a lot, sometimes I’m going to want to be brief.

This is causing me some serious conflict internally right now. This blog is so personal that I want it to be presented well. Plus I don’t want my name tied in with it.


I could write “professional essay bullshitter” on my resume

Somehow I have successfully written 12 pages worth of essay for my final in my interviewing class. I don’t know how I did it, but I’m pretty good writing under pressure. My head is killing me.John starts his new job tomorrow, I am pretty excited for him. Plus I’m going to have a night all to myself which is exciting. I’m probably going to sit on my couch and watch trashy TV shows that I know he hates. Thats usually what I do when I have the house to myself. I made a batch of candles yesterday, so I’m probably going to finish those up and put them on Etsy maybe. Here is a preview of what they look like taken with my phone camera. I wish I had a better camera. wpid-20150505_035952.jpg They’re lavender chamomile if you can’t read the labels clearly. I think they smell amazing. My grandma is going to love them. They smell great. I just have one actual final left to do and then this semester is over with. I am beyond done. I have had a really rough semester, and it isn’t entirely my fault. Much like last year when my car was broken into and the people stole my backpack with all of my textbooks in it. a big event derailed me for about a week and I found it hard to get back into the swing of things for the semester. I plan on making a big post about that at some point, or at least writing a poem about it, but I can’t bring myself to do it yet. I still don’t know all of the answers, I’m still confused about the whole situation, and once its on the internet its there forever so I might wait until after my uncle goes to trial before I say anything. Long story short, my uncle murdered his daughter. There are a lot of mixed feelings and I can see both sides of the story, strangely enough. It is probably the weirdest situation my family has ever been in. I’ll go more into that at some other point. Writing is therapeutic but I need some more time to sort my thoughts. He goes to court in mid June. I have a pretty bad headache right behind my eyes from writing this paper, so I think I’m going to go to bed now.


Random Idea of the Night

Previously, I had a small candle business that I called L’allumer Candle. I know now that I should have named it something simple, and I probably shouldn’t have invested so much money into it right away. I am thinking about rebranding my candle making into Cape Girardeau Candle, perhaps. This would really open the doors to the local market. I need to make a few simple candle scents in pretty containers to start out with. Maybe theme some of them, such as “Rose Garden” and “River Walk” or something. That would probably be a huge hit in my area. This would also make it easy to get the media behind me. I am contemplating how I want to go about this. I will need to get in with the craft fairs, plus a little door to door selling. I will need to buy local as much as I can, and make sure that my product is great. I will probably have to make a bunch up to give away for free to people who write about what I’m doing (hint hint) and come up with some facebook specials. Maybe I won’t make the facebook page until I have some reasonable support behind me. I want to do all glass containers, because I feel like my tin containers don’t look as good. Maybe I should dabble in votives as well? I’m not sure. This is just one of those 3am craft ideas that pop into my head. I hope I don’t forget about it before tomorrow.

I also need to think of a domain name for this blog, but I guess I’m not in a rush.


Sunday sleep schedule, or, how Shawna ruined her day tomorrow

Today was pretty much a regular Sunday. I woke up at noon and wasted about 6 hours of the afternoon before taking a nap at 6pm. The only productive thing I did in these six hours is get absolutely drenched helping out a friend who needed me to dog sit for her. After napping for three hours (or one half-sleep) John and I watched the new episode of Game of Thrones. To be honest, I had already seen it since the first four episodes leaked last weekend, but I didn’t tell John.  I made about fifty candles in my kitchen for work, and now my whole house smells like Citronella. So it goes, if you make candles I suppose. John made some Matzah balls and they were sustaining.

I have been thinking about the future recently. As the end is still not in sight for college, I am not sure exactly when I can get on with my life. I would like to start my own bar, and I have been putting together some ideas that I hope will be a reality some day.

I am not sure the direction that I want this blog to go yet. I might post recipes for some drinks that I make, as I enjoy my job as a bartender and I love creating new cocktails. I may post pictures of the various crafts that I do, including my candle making but definitely not limited to that. I might post my thoughts on the upcoming election. I hope to be able to look back at this blog and see how far I’ve come. I haven’t blogged since my old Tumblr, and it was hard for me to not fall into my old ways of photoblogging and reposts, and begging for followers.