rental lifestyle


It is time

to pack up my things

go through my closet

throw out stuff I don’t need

or have even looked at

since the last time I moved

box up the clutter and memories

label every box

“kitchen, bathroom, bedroom”

leave behind this place

our temporary home

of two years

to live at another temporary home

for an undetermined amount of years

rental lifestyle

always moving up, adding bedrooms

losing roommates

adding more things we don’t need

living the dream


finally finished summer class #1


Finally, after 4 weeks of cramming on Sundays for at least 10 hours (because come on, I’m a procrastinator) I am finally finished with UI 455, the study of masculinity.

This was actually a really enjoyable class, as far as subject matter goes. I have always been interested in women’s studies, and studying masculinity is actually not too far off. This class really affirmed some of my beliefs, changed others, and all around opened my mind. Really, it has nothing to do with my major. I suppose it has everything to do with my major at the same time. Communicating with others involves communicating with men, as they are half of the world’s population.

It brought up the point that thus far, men had been generalized as the generic human being. Historically, until the 1980’s, there was no real study of men being men. The reason why I took this class was to balance my feminist outlook on life. As a female in her 20’s, I have felt that men are born with a certain entitlement. The text highlights that as individuals, men don’t feel like that. To be masculine is thought of to be violent, hardworking, unemotional, powerful, and dominant. Cultures all over the world perpetuate these stereotypes, by holding antifeminitity beliefs. This means that if a man acts in any way like a woman would, they would be punished. This also perpetuates homophobia in men. Many men feel like if they act in a traditional feminine way at all, they will be perceived as gay. This creates a cycle where fathers don’t want their sons perceived as gay, so they instill antifeminine beliefs.  Being masculine has its benefits and costs as well. If a man behaves in a traditionally masculine way, then they will be perceived as powerful and people will look up to him. He has a better chance of becoming wealthy because he may have problem solving skills and is hardworking, both of which are traditional masculine traits.  The downside to living a masculine life is emotional stability. When they are young, boys are told never to show emotions and definitely never cry. This leads to serious psychological and physical problems, and often men don’t enroll in psychological treatment. If they do, they often don’t complete the treatment.

Anyway,  I’m on the season finale of Orange is the New Black, and I finished Game of Thrones season five tonight. Geez. I guess I’m probably going to binge on something else next.

Another class starts tomorrow. This one is the study of the development of sexuality. Obviously this is something I’m interested in.


The blur that was 5/18

Yesterday was the first day of the summer semester. I woke up at about 2pm, which is my usual summer wakeup time. I got my summer text books and covered a girl at work for an hour. It was her birthday and she was stuck in St. Louis  so I figured I would be nice and set up the bar for her. Especially since I saw the state of the bar while I was doing inventory on Sunday. After I left work yesterday, I hung out with Steven and we aparently went to eat mexican food and drink margs, then we went to wal mart to get cat food, then I went home and fell asleep until 6am. Upon waking, I found out that I spoiled my diet by eating two cake pops, a giant burrito, and fried ice cream, along with a jumbo strawberry margarita. Here I am, without anything to really blog about but I just wanted to get something off of my chest. I have some homework in my Mens studies class to finish. I’m procrastinating by watching Dexter until I work at 3:30. I need to go for a jog. I’m in three classes this summer so there are probably going to be a lot of procrastination poems.

Game of Thrones is currently blowing my mind. It is so different from the books. The ending of the last episode made me super uncomfortable. I can’t wait until next week.

I should probably be studying up on my French, as I have a conversational french course next semester. i haven’t even thought about french in a year and I only have two classes left in my minor/



Finals week. (or: how I transform into a demon from hell for a few hours as I cram)

I have a final in my interviewing class tomorrow. The test questions are never discussed in class because her powerpoints are irrelvant. The professor is nice enough, and I’ve learned a lot in the class, but the exams are discouraging. She gives a study guide but sometimes the terms she asks for are not in the text. I have gotten mediocre grades in the previous tests. I hope I do well on this one.

The next round of classes start the week after that. I am taking three summer classes this semester, which will be fun. Hopefully I can graduate before I’m 30? We’ll see.

Maybe I should stop procrastinating so bad? that would probably be helpful.